January 8, 2009

UNHAPPINESS or UNCERTAINTY

January's Dinner Development has come and gone.  It's incredible to me that they just keep getting better and better.  Not my teaching, but how much I learn and grow from our little dinners.  YES, you read that correctly..ME...the one who is supposedly teaching these things.  
Last night went a little longer than usual, because we had a few more people than we have had in the past.  I was shocked when I noticed that 3 hours had passed. Everyone of the attendees taught me something new and gave me a lot to think about, on the ride home.  Thank you so much: Tina, Latu, Leti, Sepa, Maka, and Jeane.
Nick and I ended up talking 'till almost 3am.  I was telling him that every time I look across the table during these dinners I see myself.  I know how they are feeling.  I told everyone that, I still get a nervous, gut wrenching feeling when I think about how much I still need to grow to reach my goals.  It seems impossible.  I seem incapable and my husband gets endlessly tired of reassuring me other wise, I'm sure.  BUT...the truth is......Today, I AM doing something I love.  I found the "THING" that I wanted to do so badly, I couldn't sleep at night.  I didn't know if I would be able to "BE" a photographer, but I had to try or I felt like it was going to kill me. David Jay once said to me that MANY of us will choose UNHAPPINESS over UNCERTAINTY!  I've never forgotten that.  We are afraid of failing, or of really wanting something and not being able to have it.  So, instead of throwing caution to the wind and making an all-out effort, we take out our dreams, look them over a time or two and pack them back away in a dark, safe place.  Uncertainty is scary.  It is uncomfortable to face.  It makes us feel small and unsure.  BUT...what is UNHAPPINESS??  Does unhappiness have the potential to take us to our dreams?  NEVER!  So you have nothing to loose but unhappiness.  Follow your hearts.  Dream big!  Know that your choices are always more powerful than your abilities.  Thanks again for coming guys!

11 comments:

Niki O2afi said...

I'm so sad I missed out Omi! Sepa called me after & told me how she had such an awesome time! Just reading your blog & hearing all things Sepa talked to me about has inspired me to find my "THING"! We need to get together for dinner so we can chat & you can give me a pep talk. I love your work & most importantly love our friendship! Love you :)

Leti Purcell-YoungYen said...

I had lots of fun last night. You are inspiring! It was so good to see you, it's been too long. Now I'm gonna call and give Faye a hard time for ditching us without a last girls luncheon. :) We'll be chatting soon. Thanks again.

LOVE YOU!

sepa said...

omi = love, pure and unadulterated. many thanks for a great evening. i may not desire to be a professional photographer, but our chat reminded me that i want still to matter. bless you for your kindness and talent. you matter. and are greatly appreciated.

OMI PHOTOGRAPHER said...

Thank you THANK you THANK YOU...Leti, Niki and Sepa. It means so much to me to have such good friends and wonderful support! LOVE YOU

Kristy said...

I keep telling Spencer what an amazing photographer you are. I have gotten soooo many compliments. Even a compliment that one of our photos was the greatest family pic of all time!! Or this should be in a magazine.I will always treasure the photos and am glad you dream BIG! Keep up the good work.

Alicia States said...

Thank you Naomi! You are ever inspiring and so encouraging! Thank you for being you. You truly make the world a better place.

Maka said...

Omi, we had a great time last night, and thanks for letting me crash the party last minute! You are very inspiring, and great to be around. Jeane left there with so many great ideas, and I had a desire to continue to always get better. Thanks again. It was great to see everyone there, and seeing Nick at the end of dinner was a nice surprise! Thank you so much!!

Suguturaga's said...

Thanks for the motivation. Your work always keeps me motivated. You truly are a talent.

Pahulu Family said...

Professional photographer and motivational speaker you are! I love reading your advice because it always makes me think twice...there is definitely no room for UNHAPPINESS! 2009 is all about dreaming big and making things happen! Much luv Oms!

Melejane said...

Thank you for a great evening Omi! It's inspiring to hear about your journey of uncertainty to that special place where you can make a difference, know how valuable you are and also be happy doing what you love.
I will definately be hittin' you up since I've networked my way into your life! :P
I am officially excited!
'09 TIME TO SHINE!

OMI PHOTOGRAPHER said...

Thanks Kristy! I meant to thank you on Sunday, but between the crying baby with the runny nose and the boy in his first day of primary...I didn't get a chance! You're the best!

Maka...thank you for the lovely post about the dinner! You two are wonderful!