Last night went a little longer than usual, because we had a few more people than we have had in the past. I was shocked when I noticed that 3 hours had passed. Everyone of the attendees taught me something new and gave me a lot to think about, on the ride home. Thank you so much: Tina, Latu, Leti, Sepa, Maka, and Jeane.
Nick and I ended up talking 'till almost 3am. I was telling him that every time I look across the table during these dinners I see myself. I know how they are feeling. I told everyone that, I still get a nervous, gut wrenching feeling when I think about how much I still need to grow to reach my goals. It seems impossible. I seem incapable and my husband gets endlessly tired of reassuring me other wise, I'm sure. BUT...the truth is......Today, I AM doing something I love. I found the "THING" that I wanted to do so badly, I couldn't sleep at night. I didn't know if I would be able to "BE" a photographer, but I had to try or I felt like it was going to kill me. David Jay once said to me that MANY of us will choose UNHAPPINESS over UNCERTAINTY! I've never forgotten that. We are afraid of failing, or of really wanting something and not being able to have it. So, instead of throwing caution to the wind and making an all-out effort, we take out our dreams, look them over a time or two and pack them back away in a dark, safe place. Uncertainty is scary. It is uncomfortable to face. It makes us feel small and unsure. BUT...what is UNHAPPINESS?? Does unhappiness have the potential to take us to our dreams? NEVER! So you have nothing to loose but unhappiness. Follow your hearts. Dream big! Know that your choices are always more powerful than your abilities. Thanks again for coming guys!