May 28, 2010

The last of little brother

My baby brother graduated yesterday. My dad is officially an old man. Love you Ry. I wish you the very best, and pray that you know your life can take you anywhere your desires and choices lead you.

May 25, 2010

Living in the moment...but dreaming of Paris.

I've been working on a few projects....more to come.

May 17, 2010

I think it's time for.......

Stars in the making.  I've had a major crash course in the game that is golf.  If anyone could make you like this game it's these TWO, Tony and Gipper, they were both awesome HERE. big, Big, BIG things to come....have a great Monday.

May 13, 2010

Putting Out Fires...

Over the last few days I have felt..for the first time in a long time, that I'm getting a grip around my life again.  I'm happy, and ready to take on life's problems as the character strengtheners that they are designed to be.
This morning I was putting my son Golden down for nap.  Startled by the terrible silence that filled the house, I went in search of my other two 5 year old boys, Rayce (my nephew) and Ryder.  I figured they went outside, but didn't see them through the windows.  Venturing out into the yard, I discovered them behind our home setting paper on fire with BBQ lighters against the garage.  Relieved and horrified, I dragged them into the house and sat them both in my office.  On the computer I pulled up news clips of children hurt, and killed by fire. We talked about the families of these children, and then I showed them pictures of burn victims, and then we got in the car and drove to the local fire station.  The boys were both crying and holding hands at this point.   My son even asked me if he was going to have to go to jail.  I told the fireman what had happened and he dutifully took over, escorting them to the fire chiefs office.  I am sure something will stick.  Hopefully.

May 5, 2010

Will closing my eyes make it go away?

Nope.  Never.  So if you are afraid of something look it in the face and you'll find it's much better than just hoping it will go away on it's own.  Fear is an illusion, and the opposite of faith, and hope.  It's a trick, so go ahead and feel worried, and scared and discouraged for one whole minute if you must, then throw it in the garbage where it belongs!  Here we go!

May 3, 2010

The best thing about ME......

The other night my mom mentioned over dinner that I blog about my dad quite often, and she wondered if I had noticed that I never blog about her. mind started reeling.  I hadn't noticed... and it took me a bit to respond.    Being that my parents are divorced, I was filled with a sharp pang of embarrassment.  Suddenly, I felt like I was 7 years old... ashamed for having shown unintentional favor to one of my parents.  I thought about why I would have been so silent about her, as she is a HUGE part of my life.  Even as I write this, I'm sure of the answer.   My mom is very private.  She is my best friend and I know her inside and out.  She is shy, and brilliant.  My whole life she has been an example of unwavering integrity and courage.  She has been the ultimate woman in my eyes.  I've never been sure if she would even want me to write about her.  If she hadn't mentioned it, I would have assumed she was positively relieved not be the subject of my badly written blog.  In fact..she probably wishes she kept her mouth zipped about it now.
My little Haven is my mom reincarnate, with my husbands eyes, and my good hair : ).  She is curious, smart and shy.  They are the best of friends, and I love her with the same heart as I do my Mother and they are two of the BEST thing about ME.
To the mother that God blessed me to have and the daughter that made me a mother, I say Thank you and Happy Mothers Day.