July 11, 2011

Being the Oldest..

The oldest child in a family has the unfortunate experience of being subject to complete incompetent parenting.  On my way to the hospital 8 years ago, THAT realization totally freaked me out.  The second I laid eyes on her I knew I would do anything for her.  It was such a powerful feeling, I no longer worried about my incompetence........ I SHOULD have.  I've always expected a lot of her...as do most parents of their firstborn.  She is unique.  Her spirit is her own.  She is the most beautiful girl in my world.  To love anyone is to hurt, but to love a child is to turn your heart inside out.   I ache when she's in pain, or struggling, and her happiness and her development has made me feel better than anything I've ever been able to do on my own.  I love you miss Haven.  Always.


8 comments:

Jen said...

She is so beautiful, Omi! I love the "heart inside out" quote. It's so true!

Nick and Sheena said...

Such a sweet post, for such a beautiful girl. :) I have to agree with the comment above, "heart inside out".. Is soooo true! Love it! :)

Taloa's said...

happy birthday miss haven. You are beautiful. 8 is such a special age!! Enjoy the celebrations!!

Kassie said...

She is beautiful Omi

Mena said...

There's my girl! She sings her little heart out every, single, time. Aunty loves you Hav.

Love u omz. Great post!

Puanani said...

Haven, you are a beautiful! The perfect mix of your mommy and daddy, and I'm sure your personality and spirit are the same!!

I'm so happy you're back to blogging, Om. I miss you!

Dasl*it Photography said...

I understand completly(?).. There is something about the first born when you see all your mistakes about being a NEW parent actually turn out OK.. Something about their smile that lets you know you actually did OK.. Love the photos Omi..

Coconut Girl said...

Hi there, just wanted to say your daughter is gorgeous. And your photography is amazing!